Friday, 27 July 2018


Hi there,

I'm sitting in front of my computer, in my home office in Brunei, back home after 2,5 weeks in Sweden and Norway. My brain is slow from jet lag but I'm in a pretty good mood!  I've had a great time in Scandinavia, spending time with my family and most of my closest friends. I've had tons of good food, swam in both the sea and lakes, read books, gone out for dinners and drinks and even got to spend two fabulous nights dancing Lindy Hop in Herräng. But as always it's great to be back. I have a busy time ahead of me the next few months, mainly because I have finally started my own business and need to sort that out and I also plan to study a few courses when the new semester starts in September. So I have come to a conclusion - I will stop blogging here for a while. Maybe forever, but who knows. I can't really find a reason to write here any more - I mean I have never been a very consistent blogger - but it's been a nice little diary and an efficient way to keep my friends in the loop of what I'm doing. But as I'm growing more and more fond of Instagram (I'm @holly_hawkeyes there) and will probably start a small blog on my business web-page I just feel this place has lost most of it's function. Maybe I'll change my mind, but I have at least decided to take 3 months where I will not post anything here. Then we'll see if I miss it!

I hope you have a great summer!

Saturday, 7 July 2018


Hello internet. I’m glad to be back in the real world! Although this adventure holiday has been one of the best trips I’ve ever been on.

If you follow me on Instagram (holly_hawkeyes) you have already seen a sneak peek of what our Mongolia trip looked like. We started the whole adventure with an unintentionally long travel day: about 30 hours including a detour to South Korea as a delay caused us to miss our connecting flight in Beijing. This resulted in us not having that extra day to discover Ulaanbaatar but ended up not being a big deal. Just slightly annoying. Anyway. The most significant impact this holiday had on me was how nice and relaxing it was to live without internet or phone connection for two weeks, and how easy it was to completely stop think by about daylight routines and plans and let my mind wander in more philosophical directions. I spend so much time with an audio-book or podcast in my ears I rarely let my mind just go but this trip let me do that. Plus the fantastic scenery and lovely climate made me both happy and a little moved. And I’m a very unsentimental person.

So, what did we do for these two weeks? Again I will not bore you with too much talk and a thousand photos. I'll just show you in a few of my favorite ones from these tow weeks, and summarize real quick.

We traveled from Ulaanbaatar to the north, by plane and then four-by-four and spent the first of our trip camping, kayaking (or actually pack-rafting) along a beautiful river and hanging out with our fellow tourist Seth and the crew organizing the trip, the main organizer Gregg, the guides Gana and Anha, the chef cook and drivers Bagi and Mende. All very nice people. We had an amazing time, spending all our time outdoor or in our tent. We also spent two day by the lake Khovsgol, where we slept in and partied in a yurt, and went diving on a wreck. After nine days me and Andreas continued by ourselves, accompanied by Jagi and Bagi, and spent five days driving from the north back to Ulaanbatar, taking our time to visit a few sites and among other things trying to ride a Mongolian herder horse and a camel!

Thursday, 14 June 2018


Bags are packed, visas are acquired, cat-sitters are up to date and flights have been checked in to. Today we are off on one of the more exotic adventures we've ever been to. Two weeks of kayaking, camping, hiking and exploring in Mongolia.

I'll let you know how it was when I get back.

Wednesday, 6 June 2018

getting serious

Hi folks,

I'm having a laid back day today, after a week or so of being busy working on my homepage and the graphics for the dance event I've mentioned before. Now things are starting to come together and I actually delivered my final version of the show program today to be sent to the printer, and that should be it for my part for the show! I'm also quite happy with how my homepage and online portfolio look, but I'm going to add a few more features before I officially launch it. I'm also going to start selling some of my prints and patterns! Right now only via print-on-demand sites like Society 6, so I wont exactly earn a bunch of money from it, but I feel it's a good way to start. Makes it feel more serious and professional... I'm having my final video-conference with my illustration teacher from Berghs School of Communication tomorrow afternoon and together we will go through my portfolio so I can get some feedback and improve it even more.

When I come back from my adventures this summer I plan to launch my homepage and start promoting my business. I haven't got a plan for how just yet, but somehow I will try to find the courage to for example post about my business on Facebook and LinkedIn, even though that feels extremely weird. The reason being most people - who don't follow me on Instagram - have no idea what I have been up to for the past few years, since I rarely post on Facebook and I guess either thinks I still work as an architect or am a housewife. Well.

Another thing I want to start doing more is networking... also something I am horrible at, as I prefer staying at home in front of the computer, so I'll most likely try to find an online network to begin with.

Wednesday, 30 May 2018

Celebrating 35

I wrote so much about how I was looking forward to celebrating my 35th birthday, I feel I should share how it actually turned out. Basically everything happened exactly the way I wanted it to happen! Probably because I had set up very realistic and relaxed goals, and mostly just relating to what I wanted to eat, but still, huge success! It still feels a bit sad not celebrating with my closest friends and family, as they are all on the other side of the world, but my absolute favorite people, Andreas, Hugo and Cricket, made my weekend totally awesome anyway.

On Friday the 18th - the day before my actual birhtday - I invited a small group of friends over for cake and drinks. Very chill and casual, but still nice to get a bit dressed up! Plus, the cake I made was delicious! I put it together from like three different recipes and it ruled! The cake of all cakes.

On my birthday Andreas woke me up with gifts, coffee and cookies. It was perfect. After opening gifts from Andreas, my parents and Anderas' parents in bed we hung out on the balcony and I started reading one of the books I got - the Handmaid's tale. The rest of the day I just read, ate awesome food and went for a swim in the near by pool, to try out another of my gifts - a waterproof mp3-player!

We finished off this perfect Saturday with prosecco, halloumi burgers with sweet potato fries and the Great Gatsby on dvd. Oh and the weekends second cake - a white chocolate and lemon cheese cake that I am sooooo happy with. Nom!

Tuesday, 29 May 2018

taking care of Elvis

Last Sunday, just as my wonderfully calm birthday weekend came to an end, I made a choice that came to influence the rest of the week, and cause some stress and anxiety.

It was getting dark and as is not that unusual in the evenings here, a heavy rain was coming in. I was on my way out to the balcony with a glass of wine, to read for a bit, but got distracted by a loud howling. I walked down to the garden and discovered a tiny, and scared looking, kitten. We have tons of stray kittens hanging around in this area, some of them looked after by the security guards of the office a few hundred meters from our house. This little dude was crying and crying, obviously left alone and distraught. I tried to coax it to come and hang out in our carport as its nice and dry there and after a while it did. Still howling like crazy and quite wet. I left it alone for a while as I didn't want to cause it any more stress but it just kept howling and crying. After a while I gave up and went out with some cat food. And after that he refused to leave.

Fast forward a few days and the kitten is still hanging out around our house, mostly sleeping on the steps up to our front door. By this time I have given up hope that he will just go back to where he came from and decided to try and find him a permanent new home. So I'm posting on Facebook, contacting stray cat organizations and so on. And by Thursday last week I found one! We will have to keep him for one more week, but next Monday his new family will pick him up. Until then we are trying to get him used to being a house cat instead of a stray, and I've taken him to the vet, we have given him a bath and have removed the furniture from our screened off balcony and are keeping hi, there so he is safe and sound. He still meows a lot to get you to come and hang out with him, but at least now he is always dry and well fed. He's even started to use a littler box, although I had to first removed all the potted plants as he was pooping in them to begin with...

And yes, although I suspect his new family will give him a new name, I needed to call him something on the veterinarian forms, so I named him Elvis. Because without that voice of his I'd never notice him and this would have never happened. Plus it's obviously a My Favorite Murder-podcast tribute...

Monday, 28 May 2018

week 22

Hi friends!
It's Monday again and I'm in the middle of planning this week. Things have been calming down a bit for the past two weeks as my illustration course is soon coming to and end, and the large graphic design project I've been working on lately is almost done. Last week I spent a lot of time working on my homepage and project for my portfolio, and I will continue doing so this week as well. But I have two new project starting this week too! As I'm not entirely sure these projects will become reality I wont write too much about them yet, but I can say one of them is an illustration project and the other a interior design project. I've been thinking a lot this year about the fact that my "work life" right now is too scattered and not very defined, but what I think I've come to terms with lately is that this is exactly how I want it to be. I want to work with a logo one day, an interior solution the next day and an illustration the day after that. That would be my dream. Now I just need to figure out how that can become reality.... heeeheee

This week I hope to come even further along with my portfolio, as I need to present it to my classmates in my illustration course on Sunday. I'm also working on those two new project a bit, and finally I hope to get some quality time with my bff and husband, Andreas. He's been working a lot lately and spent his time off studying (he's also doing online courses) but now the semester is over. And, we have a highly special anniversary on Friday so I hope we can celebrate that in some way.

Anyway, I hope to post a few more posts here this week, I have a few things to share, I was just a bit too distracted last week to get it done...

Have a great Monday!

Monday, 21 May 2018

I've read: three series about magic

Here comes the second installment in my recap of what I've read so far, this year. The summaries are shorter and more a reminder to myself of what I've read than a proper review, but hopefully it's not too boring for you to read...

This time I'm comparing the three fantasy series I started the year reading!

The Invisible Library series by Genevieve Cogman

This series actually continues after the three books I've read so far, but I feel comfortable reviewing them anyway... In this series we follow Irene, a Librarian of the Invisible Library - a giant library existing outside of all other universes but with access to all of them. The Librarians can travel between different worlds and their goal is to collect (which sometimes means steal) important books from them. Some universes are modern, high technology world ad others are filled with magic and fairies and generally steam punk-y. It's a pretty fun back story, and the plot of the books are fairly exciting, but even after reading three books I can't say I'm particularly invested in what happens to the characters.
Score: 3/5

The Paper Magician series by Charlie N Holmberg

In this series, set in a steam punk kind of world, magic exists but only in the sence where every magician can control one kind of material, like glass, metal, platsic or paper (duh). This is the story of XXX who graduates from magician school and is forced to start working with paper magic, even though she rather have any other material. Luckily she is put in to apprenticeship with a young and hansom paper magician, who also appears to be involved in mysterious and exiting drama with black magic practitioners... This was a very easy read, but the story feels thin, is a little bit silly, and I get so annoyed with the main character for constantly doing such stupid things!

The Magicians series by Lev Grossman

I actually read the first book in the series a while ago and have already reviewed it here. The plot here is that magic exists in the world but is only known to a few people (Harry Potter style). Parallel universes also exists (Narnia style). But this series is way darker than Harry Potter or Narnia, there's more death, stupid choices, alcohol and sex in it, for one, and you definitely don't like the characters all the time. I remember not liking Quentin - the main character - at all in the first book, but in the second and third he grows on me, mostly because he grows up. This series is hard to put down, there are really good plot twists and great imagination, a series that feels like a way more solid piece of work than the other three. 
Score: 4/5

Saturday, 19 May 2018

Happy birthday to me, and: 30 after 30

There is this phenomenon called "30 before 30" where people come up with 30 things they want to achieve before they turn 30. Fun and innocent I guess, and something I would have thought was cool to make when I was in my twenties. But now this annoys me a bit, I just think it adds on the stress of ageing and the myth that life is over when you turn 30. Because of course you can't do any of these things when you are 31, then your done, over, passé! Well, you are not. And to prove that, to you and me, here's a list of 25 things I have done, managed or achieved since I turned 30.

I posting it here today as today is my 35th birthday, which means two things:

  1. a LOT has happened the past 5 years.
  2. a lot can happen in the next 5, 10 or 50 years

I am very aware that some of the things on my list are there only because I am a privileged person, who have access and the possibility to do them. But many of these things are not. They are things anyone can do, if you are prepared to step outside your comfort zone. And most importantly, most of these things I wouldn't have thought that 30+ me would (or maybe could) or even wanted to do, if you had asked 20 something me.

Since I turned 30 I have:

  1. learned to ride a horse
  2. begun dancing lindy hop, balboa and blues
  3. joined a roller derby team,learned how to skate...
  4. ... passed my roller derby minimum skills...
  5. ...and played a few bouts!
  6. become more comfortable at my work and handled several big projects
  7. quite my job to try something new and follow my dreams
  8. moved to a new country, my third outside Sweden
  9. become a student again, studied several completely new topics and learned new skills...
  10. writing CSS and HTML code
  11. participated in a tap workshop
  12. made new and really, really good friends
  13. gotten used to driving on the "wrong" side of the road
  14. overcome my fear of flying
  15. planned a wedding in three months and gotten married
  16. learned to like (vegetarian) sushi
  17. run 10k (only once, so far, but still)
  18. dared to show of my drawings and illustrations on a special Instagram account
  19. bought the domain for the name of my (hopefully) future business
  20. designed a logotype that will be used (internally) in a big company
  21. tried jet-ski in Bali
  22. fired an AK47 on a shooting range in Vietnam
  23. danced Lindy Hop in Seoul
  24. tried katana sword-fighting in Tokyo
  25. tried SUP in Brunei
  26. cut my hair short...
  27. ...colored my hair bright red...
  28. ...and also bright pink
  29. started studying a new language (Malay)
  30. started dancing Salsa Casino

Me, on my 30th birthday, 5 years ago. Little did this happy redhead know what the next 5 years would include!

Friday, 18 May 2018

Birthdays past

It's my birthday-week, if you have missed that... As I love going back looking at old photos I decided to round up a few from my past birthdays!

Turning 30
celebrating in our backyard in Stavanger, eating cake baked by my darling Emma and just enjoying the perfect May weather with my sweet friends. Matching mt painting in the back very well!

 Turning 31
pretty much copy paste from the year before, including a cake made by Emma,
only another haircolour and even more of a children's birthday party theme!

Turning 32
and getting help opening gifts in bed. I received so many fun gifts perfectly suited all of my geeky interests from Doctor Who, to roller derby to gardening.

Turning 33
celebrating at Emma's since Andreas and all our furniture were already in Brunei, 
although he sent me a huge bouquet of roses! Emma also spoiled me royally with cake for breakfast and making halloumi burgers for dinner. That girl is a star.

Turning 34
Receiving a perfect mix of gifts from Andreas, getting celebrated with chocolate by my expat organization and having a balcony party in the evening. 

Wow. This posts makes me miss my friends back in Stavanger a lot... So it's pretty awesome I'll be able to spend some quality time with Emma and a few of the others when I come back this summer, yaaaay!

It also make me want to do something new with my hair... maybe I should make an appointment for Friday...